Every song sounds like it’s about us today

But I probably shouldn’t tell you that

Cause you’ll think it means I love you

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Just makes me sad the time we wasted

I’m not mad at you just feel a little numb

The way you tossed me around with just your finger and thumb

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And I never once thought I would hurt you so badly

Just by failing to be what you expected of me

But I won’t/can’t apologize for things I never was 

And things I was never going to be

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And I want to feel bad so badly

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I wish I’d said the things you heard

I wish I’d been too afraid to say I didn’t love you

I wish I’d been too scared to hurt you

I wish I’d said it was real

So maybe you wouldn’t look so damn crazy to me tonight

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Cause I’d rather be the bad guy than be so confused 

And I’ll keep sitting here fighting the thought that I did something wrong

But it’s not my fault this time

I won’t apologize

Not again

Not this time

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I don’t know if I can stand it

The way that conversation ended with you

We didn’t go as we planned it

I guess that people never really do

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I don’t know if I can stand it

The way it ended with you

We didn’t go as we planned it

But I guess that people never really do

 

I think I’m just curious about it

All those hours on the phone

And whether any of it mattered

When you said I didn’t care at all

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I think I’m just curious about all the hours

That I gave you on the phone

And whether any of it mattered

 

 

I tried to wrap my head around ya

I tried to keep the open door

 

 

I’ve been thinking about it

The 

 

Cause I’m not supposed to like this

 

 

Cause you’ll think that means I love you // cause you’ll think that that’s love //

 

Another hour on the phone with you

But I can’t wrap my head around it

I tried to wrap my head around it

 

 

I’ve been thinking about it

The way you held the knife

And the way that it sounded

When you 

 

Living without it

 

And by the way that its sounding

And by the way that it sounded

 

 

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You can’t sleep without it

You can sleep at night

 

But can you live without it?

 

 

If the worst thing that’s ever happened

Ever happened to you

Was when I happened to you

 

Every song 

 

If there was anything worth saving //

 

If I’m the worst thing that’s ever happened

That’s ever happened to you

 

And I’m the worst thing that’s ever happened to you

yeah I promise I get it

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Was I a thought in your mind the whole time

 

but every time I did you told me I didn’t 

 

 

Did it cross your mind

The way it all crossed mine

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I’ve been thinking about it